Namida...

This actually a japanese song. I listen to it every time i feel like i'm losing hope. =')

Namida-- 2Backka

No matter how many thousands of times we cry, surely we can overcome it one more time

You can't act like you're clumsy and run away

You should know that much

This is the last time, the last chance, and even if I mess up I won't be scared

The sorrow, the sadness, the longing - they can all be healed someday

When the days we cried and cried are behind us, we can be strong one more time

You can't act like a coward and run away

You should know that much

No matter how many thousands of times we fall, surely we can overcome it one more time

I'm sure your voice will reach me over any distance, straight to me, forever...

The days when things don't go as planned

The feelings I deceived by acting strong

It feels like something's about to break, like tears are about to fall

Unable to be honest

Unable to be myself

If all I ever do is run away

My feelings will never be known

I have to face the goal I've set

Even if I'm pounded by wind and rain, I have to face it

Before I know it, time is passing me by

But everyone, no matter who, can surely grow stronger

I can't keep deceiving my feelings and smashing them down every day

Now is the time to climb the stairway of my one and only life

No matter how many thousands of times we cry, surely we can overcome it one more time

You can't act like you're clumsy and run away

You should know that much

This is the last time, the last chance, and even if I mess up I won't be scared

The sorrow, the sadness, the longing - they can all be healed someday

It feels like I can reach it, but I can't

It feels like I can grasp it, but I can't

The same old fears, so many fears, are holding me back by the arm

Let go of me, I have to go, this isn't my place

If I leave now it won't be too late

I've decided that the tears trailing down my cheeks will be my last

It's not over yet, nothing has ended, nothing has started yet

I haven't finished giving my answer yet, I haven't given up yet

I haven't experienced the joy of knowing the meaning, the reason that I am who I am

I'm already standing by myself, my own tomorrow is waiting

Wipe your tears, lift your face, say this is the beginning and look up at the sky

Smile and stretch out your hand

Until we arrive at the same feeling

An unseasonal wind blows

Rather than living with my back turned on my true feelings

It's probably better to head for the place I was striving for, right?

No matter how many thousands of times we cry, surely we can overcome it one more time

You can't act like you're clumsy and run away

You should know that much

This is the last time, the last chance, and even if I mess up I won't be scared

The sorrow, the sadness, the longing - they can all be healed someday

When the days we cried and cried are behind us, we can be strong one more time

You can't act like a coward and run away

You should know that much

No matter how many thousands of times we fall, surely we can overcome it one more time

I'm sure your voice will reach me over any distance, straight to me, forever...

credits to http://daniicalore.blogspot.com/2009/05/namida-by-2backka-lyrics-with-english.html for the english translation

ganbatte.. =)

Waiting for my "Usui Takumi"~~

*WARNING, this post is not for those who are allergic to lovey dovey stuff. Reader's discretion is advised *

Kyaaaa~~ I fell in love with Usui Takumi~~ >///<

Who is Usui Takumi you might ask? Why, he just happen to be the SWEETEST, CUTEST guy in shoujo history! OMIGOSH omigosh, I just dont know where to start.. His attitude?? His looks?? His talent?? danggg~ he's just super perfect. *spoiler alert* Except for the fact that he's actually the second successor of the Walker family. (sorry for those who dont read Kaichou Wa Maid sama, I bet you have nooo idea what I'm talking about >.<)... Honestly speaking, it's not the looks that caught my heart (although it does count.. a bit) it's the fact that he only sees Ayuzawa Miyazaki, no one else. like NO ONE ELSE. He loves that girl sooooo much he doesnt cares even if there were any prettier girl created in that manga. Even when he's alone with another girl, he only thinks about Ayuzawa.. (awwwww... >.<). That's what makes me love him so much...

I would love to find a guy like him. I don't mind if he doesnt look EXACTLY like him..

I just want a guy who cares about me and who only sees me in his eyes, accepts me for who I am, even if I'm the last girl you would ever want to end up with. I'm soooo sorry I suddenly talk about this topic.. But I don't know what's wrong with me... maybe it's just the fact that I'm kinda lonely... I mean it's not that I don't have any friends or anything, but my friends are nice and I have great relationship with them. They're great, they really are. They're there when I need them, and they never failed to make me happy. But I dont know... Sometimes I just feel like.... Dangggg I dont wanna say it cause it's soooo GELI. I guessed it's the fact that I'm almost 19 now, and my hormone is getting CRAZIER day by day. =___= I'm a teenager with need. O.O dont get me wrong --the need to be loved that is. (GOOSHH that sounds sooo wrong) =____=

I really dont know what is wrong with me, sometimes I can get really happy and sometimes I get really depressed.. *Okaaaaayy, back to topic* then I was like thinking to myself... "if I were to wish for a guy like Usui Takumi, maybe I should work hard like Ayuzawa Miyazaki." then it hit me. Ayuzawa worked HARD her WHOLE life. She's always top in everything, and she always does things WHOLEHEARTEDLY. She DESERVED Usui.

So moral of the story, instead of waiting for your knight in shining armor (or in this case Usui in shining armor XD) we should love ourself first, work hard, be a better person, and 'he' will definitely come to you. =)

Again sorry for the crappy English.

Am working HARD to improve it~ XD

Alright Yazuminu is signing out

GANBATTE

P/s; Yazuminu is my new nick name. =)

Why blog?

Okeyh. I used to ask myself, "why do people blog?" why do you wanna write your stories for the whole world to read? Why don't you just write it in your diary instead? you're saving your ink and paper is it? environmental much? lol~ I couldn't sleep, so decided to write another post (since I'm starting to get addicted to blogging).

So back to the main question. why blog? I used to hate the idea writing an online diary/journal. Telling people you've just bought this new pair of shoes, or how you love this guy/girl. But, when I started my own blog, I kinda understand why people are sooo addicted to blogging.

1. You get to express yourself to those who really cares what you think (or at least shows an interest in your life) Do you really think your roommate cares if you buy a new shirt (maybe they do, just not all the time, they too have what we call 'life'), or do you think your mom wants to know that you've just come up with this new tudong fashion? no. but they are other people who do. Other people out there somewhere in the corner and crook of this blue planet might want to explore your life more than the ones who are close to you. (for example; stalkers, creepy hardcore fans.. I kid, I kid).

2. You get to show the world you actually exist. I used to google my name just to see what happen. other than having one of my poem posted in my English club's blog, and some birth control (I can't believe people named birth control after my name. shame on you) I can't find any other thing that caught my attention. So, by blogging, I can at least leave a mark in the virtual world.

3. One day if I get old, I want to be able to read all my past stories, thoughts, etc. You might say "write a diary then" but paper ages with time. then you add "then write in microsoft word or something" but what if your computer crashes.. and then you say... god, I don't want to add this. I can go all day. MY POINT is I want to be able to access my past memories as easily as 1,2,3. something like that.

4. If anyone ask me "how's life so far? tell me about it" then I can just say, "read my blog". lol. I can be that lazy ok.

So I guess that's my top 4 reasons for now. I'll add more later when I can think of a new one. I've just realized how BORING my blog looks like with all these words. You might as well just read a text book, right? hehe, so I've decided from now on I'm gonna include one or two picture just to spice up my post.

TADAAAAA~ I'm currently addicted to nendoroid. they're so cuteeee. I'll get one, one day. need to save up first. I also in urgent need of a new mp3. The one that I've just bought broke down. Dammit. =___= so I guess that's all I should say for now. I'll update again later. jaa mata~

here's a video for you from moi favorite youtuber nigahiga. alright Mintaro signing out~

konna ni chikaku de~

Ngaaa~ I'm supposed to be studying calc now.. +__+ never mind, I've been thinking of things to be written since this morning. LOL. I've decided to update my blog. bwahahahahahah~~ (God, I seriously need to study =___=) can't believe it's like february already. O.O DAMN. 2nd semester seems to be more hellish than the first one. I don't know what to write, I have tonnes of stories but writing all of them meant no beauty sleep for me tonight. (don't know if I should call it 'beauty'). As you can see, I have the habit of saying lol nowadays. T__T sometimes I interpret lol as tolol. hahahaha. <----- now that's a real laugh. unlike lol. I feel like lol is a less sincere laugh. As you can also see (or read), I'm still in the process of improving my crappy-american-wannabe English.

Okeyh, lets talk about school. School sucks. LOL. (=_= I'm seriously addicted to lol). It's hectic,and somehow twice as hellish than the first sem.(said that before) I'm just amazed by how the sophomores, juniors, and seniors are able to survive in this mental prison (couldn't think of a better name). From day to day my fear grows, like a tumor (being dramatic,lol). But when I'm down, I think about those unfortunate people who would die just to get an education, and here I am grumbling my ass off. (see what I did there, I just cursed, another bad habit I've adopted). I'm trying to instill the feeling of thankfulness into my soul... or heart.. or either one.

I've realized that I fall in and out of *some text missing* easily nowadays. That brings me to the title of this post. It's a song from crystal Kay about a girl who has a serious crush on her best friend(a guy friend, of course). This songs has that *UNREQUITED-LOVE * written all over it. I guess something is wrong with my hormonal system. =/ hmm... like my English teacher used to say, "as you go through your youth, your hormones goes haywire and you start falling in love" she says the word 'love' as sarcastically as she could. hohoho~ but don't worry, it's not like I'm desperate anyway. I find myself to have this ability to cause my crushes to repel.. in other words... I can't think of any other word right now.... T____T I'll explain it when I find a better way to explain it.

I think that's about it. I can't think of anything else to be ranting about. sleepy dude. it's like 2. am... =__= keyh wish me luck for my exam.. (but I'm positively sure that by the time you read this I'm done crying over the result.)

Alright, all the best.

Mintaro signing out.~

Out of reach

Out of reach. It's a song from gabrielle. A song about unrequited love. Which brings me to this post. Well, I'm not gonna talk more about this.. It's kinda.. private... hoho. I can't believe it's like november already. I've SURVIVED the first few months of being a freshman. Trust me, it ain't pretty. All the depression, all the frustrations. It's just too fast. I know, I shouldn't complaint, but I can't help it. I'm just a mere human. We all have our moments. Something I feel like, I don't deserve this. But there's nothing I can do about it. All I can do is look forward and move on. It's not easy. It was never easy. I've never been this far from home for this long. It's a miracle how I've managed to survive the first few months as a freshman. It ain't easy. Nothing is. Homesickness, loneliness, pressure, that's just a fraction of my feelings. Trying my best to push myself beyond my capabilities. Even if it means, losing apart of myself along the way. It can't be helped. Sacrifices are.. mm.. unavoidable?

Another thing that bothers me is that the possibility of me to go back next year is nearly impossible. God knows how I miss my family, my home, my parents, siblings (wait, why do I even want to repeat this? =___= I did said family in the beginning, oh well). Everyone keep asking, "when are you coming back?". I'm starting to hate that question. It just reminds me that I won't be going back in a long time.. *sigh* I wonder how's my cat doing.. =/

Whatever happens, I'll do my best to cope with it. Well, it's college life, what do you expect?

Sorry for the crappy english. Still doing my best to improve it. Wish me luck~(even is all the luck in the world can't help me no more)

That's all, I'll update soon.

Mintaro signing out~

2010~~

OH MY GAWWD~ It's 2010!!! Can you believe it? Mcm baruk smalam jak mek mok masuk Form 1.. haha.. rindu lu ngan sekolah eh... sik sangka mek dah kuar skolah.. sik sangka skarang mek isik borang apply U... Aigooo... I'm gettin' old... But then... Rupa samaa jak sik berubah... Tinggi pun sama jakkkk...(I blame the GRAVITY).. berat jak yg berkurang..hehe(almaklum la org balit dari PLKN...) Yesss! I've survived PLKN.. I'm proud to say I'm an ex-wirawati... Bila ada masa klak upload gmbr... Yeah~ this year I'm turnin' 18! I'm 18! Like what Mdm Iqbal used to say, "you guys are about to become MINI adults.."... hehehe.. sik lamak gik masuk U... ^^

Wirawati Mintaro signing out~

Saranghamnida!!

HOHOHOHOHO!!

Huhuhuhuuu~~~~~~~~~~ Bakat BAru komik 2009 telah tiba!!!! Hohoho kmk mok cuba try da best untuk send komik mek... mun dapatlah.... Aja aja fighting!!! 

Hehehehe... tanpa mengetahui sebabnya... demam Anime dah datang balit.. Huhu, recently, tertgk satu anime tok, dan sik sangka leh minat ngannya coz epik giler..... Huhuhuh, mesti tgk tengen toppan gurren lagann ho......

Susah lu, makin dekat ngan SPM makin gila tgk anime.... Baruk-baruk tok pun pande minat balit baca manga bleach... sbr jak la..... Tp bleach nang best la.... dpt tgk ichigo jd full hollow... apuuuuu~~~~~ SPM sik lamak gik.... 

Sik tauk gik mok ckp pa... Tp klo ada papa... update lak...

Mintaro signing out,

Aja aja FIGHTING!