Out of reach. It's a song from gabrielle. A song about unrequited love. Which brings me to this post. Well, I'm not gonna talk more about this.. It's kinda.. private... hoho. I can't believe it's like november already. I've SURVIVED the first few months of being a freshman. Trust me, it ain't pretty. All the depression, all the frustrations. It's just too fast. I know, I shouldn't complaint, but I can't help it. I'm just a mere human. We all have our moments. Something I feel like, I don't deserve this. But there's nothing I can do about it. All I can do is look forward and move on. It's not easy. It was never easy. I've never been this far from home for this long. It's a miracle how I've managed to survive the first few months as a freshman. It ain't easy. Nothing is. Homesickness, loneliness, pressure, that's just a fraction of my feelings. Trying my best to push myself beyond my capabilities. Even if it means, losing apart of myself along the way. It can't be helped. Sacrifices are.. mm.. unavoidable?
Another thing that bothers me is that the possibility of me to go back next year is nearly impossible. God knows how I miss my family, my home, my parents, siblings (wait, why do I even want to repeat this? =___= I did said family in the beginning, oh well). Everyone keep asking, "when are you coming back?". I'm starting to hate that question. It just reminds me that I won't be going back in a long time.. *sigh* I wonder how's my cat doing.. =/
Whatever happens, I'll do my best to cope with it. Well, it's college life, what do you expect?
Sorry for the crappy english. Still doing my best to improve it. Wish me luck~(even is all the luck in the world can't help me no more)
That's all, I'll update soon.
Mintaro signing out~
